Oh my goodness! I don’t know why I proceed to be shocked by the large emotions on the primary day of college, however right here I’m as soon as once more, sitting at my desk with dried tears on my cheeks and a swirl of feelings in my chest.
For the final two weeks, I’ve been solely targeted on supporting and constructing Connor as much as get her prepared for second grade. In between chaperoning playdates and adventures along with her woman gang, there’ve been a couple of “I don’t need to return to high school” moments, with a number of tears and hugs.
The previous few days have been spent getting ready, planning and attempting to get her braced for the primary day. We’ve packed luggage, talked about issues to stay up for, deliberate outfits — I’ve at all times believed that in the event you’re anxious a few transition that it at all times helps to organize as a lot as you possibly can, in order that’s what we did.
When El Hub and I walked her to her classroom this morning, she was in good spirits — a bit nervous however nonetheless cheerful. After she dropped off her backpack and mentioned hello to her instructor, she walked into the classroom with out wanting again. No tears in any respect, which was nice!
As soon as we walked away from the classroom, although, I cried, which I didn’t count on in any respect. that buddy you have got who is ok till she’s not? That’s me, LOL!
It’s the depth of the emotions that shock me. What I do know deep down is that at some point she actually gained’t want me; she’ll stroll by way of a door and gained’t look again, and regardless that logically I do know that’ll be a very good factor, a part of me is having a tough time accepting it.
So, I attempt to joyfully be current for the transient time I’ve along with her. One of many unusual blessings that comes with having a baby in your 40s is that you simply grow to be so aware of the passing of time. I understand how shortly these years will cross. Within the blink of a watch 10 years will fly by and she or he’ll be going into her senior 12 months of highschool. Craziness!
Anyway, earlier than I begin crying once more, on a considerably random beauty-related observe, this was the primary 12 months El Hub has been in a position to be residence for the primary day of college, so I had all these plans to place make-up on this morning so he might take a “proof of mother” image of me and Connor.
I ended up solely having time to do my hair and placed on tinted sunscreen, so my desires of wanting a minimum of semi-decent didn’t occur, LOL!
I’m going to Ulta and Sephora to purchase a gift for a buddy and to do some searching to cheer myself up. If there’s something you’ve discovered recently that you simply’ve been actually into, let me know. I might use the distraction.
Ship a digital hug this fashion, will ya?
Your pleasant neighborhood magnificence addict,